Procrastinator? not me!

As i read all the posts on facebook about how college students should be studying for finals, but instead procrastinate until it is to late, it makes me think about my own study skills. I admit they have been lacking somewhat this year. I don't know how it started, but this year i've been so lazy when it comes to doing my homework. I always wait until the day before it is due, and late at night when i will finally begin to tackle the assignment. It's becoming a horrid habit, and one that i intend to break. So from now on I'm limiting time on pintrest (sad day:() and facebook. And instead will try to use my time productively, whether it is by studying of become more flexible and stronger (new years resolution). I am determined to make a change in my life in preparation for college. New school, new me right? time to become the person i've always wanted to be.

It's beginning to look a lot like christmas....

Is it just me or is december possibly the most hectic month of the year? Not only are all of my teachers giving out tests, but it's time to go to family parties, and ward get to gethers, and practice for the talent show. Sometimes i find myself getting frustrated. There is so much to do and not enough time. It's easy to feel swept away by the long to do list, and be tempted to throw my hands in the air and go watch t.v. But i keep reminding myself that next year everything will be different. Different friends, different life, and i need to enjoy it while i can. So in stead of a to do list, here's my list of things accomplished that made this week so great.

1. Almost all caught up on homework.

2. Sitting on santa's lap for a 2nd time, guess what i asked for? better grades, how sad.

3. Learned how to do a sock bun. See above pic for a little glimpse.

4. Caroling, what could put you in the christmas mood better?

5. Getting whiplash from whipping my hair at the stomp.

6. Learning how to do a choreographed dance, it's been awhile since i've participated in one of those.

7. xc banquet, it's nice to remember all the good times this season.

8. baking! French bread and peanut butter balls. Yum, i'm having cravings for peanut butter!

9. Full moon. :)

10. Pinned some good quotes on pintrest. True, i'm addicted. But it's inspirational. So it's all good right?

11.watch a christmas movie every day. So cliche.

12. Listened to way to much music. This will always be a favorite. Thank you the last song. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RBM_srNAOk8, and i can't forget my true love jb! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0CB_n_LtlCI

Merry Christmas! bless us one and all....

they joys of running xc

Last week i was able to go to california with the xc team. Boy was it crazy! It kinda was my last big party with the team. Soon, i'll be graduated and moved out. crazy to think i won't have these girls anymore. Cross country has been such a big part of my life, i've been doing it for over 5 years of my life. Through my hard struggles, and worst days coming to practice was the one constant. I rely on it, yearn for it, need it. Being able to lace up my shoes and go for a run whenever the urge comes is one of the greatest blessing in my life.

Look at these girls!! back when i was just a wee sophomore, this was my team. what sweethearts!

first there is Ashley, the optimistic peppy one, she never fails to bring a smile to everyone's face. I don't really recall when we first became friends. It seems kinda funny because we didn't ever talk to each other when we had the same class in elementary school. Who really knows what brought us together, but i'm glad that it did. She's so much fun to be around, and provides motivation when i need it most. No matter what time of day, she always looks cute (and will always deny it). I look up to her in so many ways, how she can run so fast on tempo runs, it seems like i'm always staring at her bouncy hair wondering how she managed to go so fast. She's the mother of the team, always looking out for everyone else.

Then there is hannah, the always late, rushing around, stressed to the max. Bless her heart, i adore her. it seems like every race that year we gathered at the starting line and our hearts plummeted as we realized that hannah wasn't there! She's the girl who has been my teammate for the longest. Back when we were just 7th graders, wondering why exactly we decided to start running. We've been through it all, together. I remember when we would go for a run on saturday together, and just talk through the entire run, not once was there a silent moment. I could talk all day with her, she's my partner, we're always running together, side by side. Crazy how close we have gotten in the past 6 years. It doesn't seem like i've only known her for 6 years, but rather my whole life. She's practically my sister.

Alisa!! Bless this girl's heart, she is my favorite! There is SO much i could say about alisa. Like the way be became friends was that we didn't want to do an ab workout after practice, so instead we told jokes. How i've never gotten into so many mud fights with one person. She has an adventurous soul, and we do the craziest stuff! (our most recent adventure being mountain biking) Words cannot describe my love for her. It's gonna break my heart being away from her, i can't even think about it. Running, sledding, hot tubing, eating maytes, mini golf. We do EVERYTHING together, and i can't imagine life without her. She's my joy, my little teddy bear when we cuddle, crayon breaker when we color, we splash in water, we spin around on chairs and beat each other up, and i love every moment of it...

TIFF!! Oh tiff, since you're probably gonna actually read this, it's hard to come up with adequate words to let you know how much your friendship means to me. I remember when you and tori came to my track meet to watch me race against Ashleigh Warner. I was so scared, but you have a calming presence. All my worries seem to vanish when you come. You're a free spirit, lively, fearless. Your vast knowledge of quotes is amazing, i'm so jealous. Your laugh is infectious, it makes me smile just liking about it. I'm so glad that you got to go to cali this year! It hasn't been the same racing without you, this team is like a body, and we were missing a leg until you came back. Haha weird analogy, i know. I just want you to know that i value our friendship, and love you to death!

There are so many other wonderful people on the team i could talk about. Lecy, lex, chantal, marcy, bre, and so many others. These girls have helped shape me into a better person. Even though our lives are about to go in separate directions, i will always hold them close to my heart, my sisters for life.

California preview

Here's a little sneak peek of what will probably be a very long post describing my adventures. But for now enjoy the pictures and just imagine the story behind them.

scattered thoughts on a sunday

I miss being a kid. I feel like i'm still that young, and yet i'm being forced to make grown up decisions. College. Never in a thousand years did i think i would have to worry about college. but here i am...

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maybe even

the options are limitless. What will it be like to be away from home? will i survive?

I'm going to gain 100 pounds by the end of winter. thanks to my dear auntie. Cooking all these yummy foods has gone out of control. i can't stop eating them, yet i love making

them. i'm doomed for track if i keep this up.. it's worth it though right?

Thank goodness only 2 days of school this week!! I'm ready to party it up during thanksgiving break!

Sitting on santa's lap? definitely a high light of my life... let it snow, let it snow, let it snow. I'm ready for some sledding :)

i'm constantly craving a run. all i want to do is put on my shoes and hit the pavement.

in the words of the oh so wise ferris, life moves fast. already senior year is racing by. I'm trying to live it up while i can so i don't look back and realize my life is full of empty yesterdays.

it's been rough. the stronger my testimony gets the harder satan pushes, tries to fight. To bad i'm on the winning side right? come at me bro. i dare you. I can take this. nothing you can do will sink me. i will stay afloat.

ice skating

Mutual was an adventure yesterday. We went on a little fieldtrip and had a blast and a half at the ice skating rink.

The begining, our chipper faces so happy to be there! love these girls

Not all were cut out for the strenuous adventure of ice skating :P

Met the cutest girl, her name was also sidney

What could make the night go better than topping it off with hot chocolate?

Ice skating was so much fun! I am definitely doing it again sometime soon! love it!

thank you

Since it's thanksgiving soon, i'm gonna use this month to post what i'm grateful for. Begining with:

I'm thankful for my body. I love the fact that whenever I feel the urge, i can put on my shoes and go for a run. I love not being injured. I love that when tough times come, I can escape the world for an hour or so and everything becomes so clear. It's just me and the road. I love being able to think that should the need arise i can run away from someone, and be able to run far and fast. It makes me feel much more safe. I love that I can participate in sports whenever i want, play the occasional soccer, volleyball, basketball. I love being able to go to dances and party the night away without getting winded. I love the feeling of being sore after working out because i know that i worked hard and i'm building muscle. I love feeling proud of my body, just the way it is. I'm so blessed that heavenly father gave me this body. It's true when he says that our bodies are a temple. They need to be treated with respect and care. I try to eat healthy and make sure i get enough sleep so my body can work at its best.

That's what i'm thankful for.

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Perhaps a little pick-me-up is fitting for right now. I know that I definitely need it.

These days

Volleyball game, state playoffs!!

They did SOOO good!!! so proud of them :)

Surprise! We visited east high, sang a bit of high school musical. Sadly Troy Bolten was not to be found anywhere :(

I live for these days. The days where i'm never home. The days where homework takes a back seat in my priority list. The days when eating is a 2nd thought, almost forgotten to the point where i'll just eat a poptart to fill my stomach a bit. why do i love these days? Because they remind me that i'm living. This is not just a time to learn, go to school, do what your told. Life was meant to be lived. Have fun. Party it up. Be a bit reckless. Take a chance. because life is to short to have regrets. And the things you'll regret most is what you DIDN'T do, rather than what you did do.

applied

31-Oct 2011

Dear Sidney,

Thank you for applying for admissions and scholarships to Utah State University! Your decision to apply is an excellent one.

And

Dear Sidney,

Thank you for submitting your Premier Status Application to Southern Utah University. -I look forward to reviewing your application!

Life

Who are you to tell me i can't? You have no idea what i am capable of. So get out of the way, take a seat, and watch on the sidelines as i chase my dreams.

I survived. I can keep going, keep fighting, keep living. You didn't stop me.

never put in only half the effort. All the way.

Even if your scared, terrified of what they might think. You have the truth on your side, and that's more powerful than the majority

Happy birthday clint. miss you. everyday.

Oh sorry, i wasn't worth your time then. And it's not worth my time now. We're done being friends. Don't come running back to me.

Every time it breaks i will be stronger because of it.

Love and hate this movie. It's beyond adorable. It's everything that i wish i could have. I hate it because it's not real life, and i can't expect mine to be like this.

The world is a gorgeous place. Stop for just a moment and soak it all in. It's overwhelming how wonderful our existence is. always be grateful

I have those regrets. The times i wish that i hadn't stayed silent. I wish i had stood up for myself. Spoke my thoughts. But never again. This moment only comes around once, speak now or forever hold your peace. I choose to speak now.

Why does it always happen at night? I'm fine, strong during the day. But at night i miss you so much it hurts. I wish you were hear right now. I wish i could tell you everything that is going on. Maybe someday i will get up the courage to tell you just how much i miss you, and how hard this is on me.

Be true to yourself. People will come and go out of your life. But you will always have to live with yourself.

I'm so blessed to have you in my life. You make it more beautiful, happy. You're always there for me even when i'm bitter, angry, and hate the world. Thank you

There will always be hard times. I don't want to just wait for it to end to find joy. I want to be happy now, find joy through the pain.

Every day this year. I thought i wasn't going to run this year. Thought i was done. But you changed me, you ran with me. When i was weak, you gave me strength. When i was crumbling, ready to quite, you gave me the courage to go on. When i was frightened of the future, unaware of where my life was going, you showed me that you have a plan for me and it will all be okay. I wouldn't be the runner i am today without you.

No one can tell you to be happy or sad. Forget the backstabbers. they were never your friend anyway. They aren't worth it. Keep your head up and smile

Mold me into the person i'm meant to be.

Exhausted, tired of failing, ready to give up. But no i will keep fighting, because tomorrow will come and I will have more opportunities to be the best person i can be.

Regrets? who needs them. If you don't like who you have become than change it. Become a new person and live the life you want.

It's hard to find the words to tell you exactly how i feel. Thankfully because of the atonement Jesus knows what's going on and how i feel, pray, even when the words don't come.